Friday, March 15, 2019

Random thoughts - Death, as in movies

Animation movies look perfect to me. I find most regular movies (in which humans act) silly or funny (inadvertently); there are exceptions of course. But animation movies seem flawless. The attractive color scheme, the depth of expression in the animated characters and the light hearted, feel good demeanour amuse me perhaps.

Theatrical release poster depicting the characters Coco, Dante the dog, Miguel, Héctor, Ernesto, and Imelda when viewing clockwise from the bottom left around Ernesto's white, Day of the Dead-styled guitar. The guitar has a calavera-styled headstock with a small black silhouette of Miguel, who is carrying a guitar, and Dante (a dog) at the bottom. The neck of the guitar splits the background with their village during the day on the left and at night with fireworks on the right. The film's logo is visible below the poster with the "Thanksgiving" release date.
Image source : https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/9/98/Coco_%282017_film%29_poster.jpg

Recently I watched this movie "Coco" on TV.  It depicts how death is viewed in Mexican culture, woven into the story of a boy named Miguel. He is born in a family which abhors music, but wants to be a musician. Miguel enters the land of the dead by mistake and needs one of his his dead relative's blessing to return. His great grandma Imelda agrees to bless, but on the condition that he abandons his musical interest. This makes Miguel flee from them to find his great grandfather Ernesto De La Cruz who was a popular musician when he was alive. Ernesto had given up his family to pursue his dream of becoming the most popular musician in Mexico (hence the family detests music). Hector, another deceased offers to help Miguel find Ernesto. With my knowledge of what a screenplay is, this movie has a fabulous one with some twists and a revelation at the end. Being a movie about musicians, it is a great musical too. I thoroughly enjoyed this movie and would strongly recommend you to watch it. Haven't given any spoiler! But my toddler, who usually enjoys animation movies, seemed uninterested; maybe because of the dark color tone. 

Now coming to the perception of death in Mexican culture, the dead people enter another realm of existence - the land of the dead (The dead being skull faced helps us differentiate them from living people in the movie). The memories about them in living people are necessary for them to live in the land of the dead. As these memories of the dead fade in the living people, the dead person enters another realm about which no one has any knowledge. 
The dead get to visit their living family once in a year, in a night called Día de Muertos, the night of the dead.  The living family has to put a picture of their deceased relative on the family Offrenda (an altar in which offerings to the dead are made) enabling their visit on the night of the dead. The filmmaker had beautifully documented this facet of Mexican culture.

The conception of death in this movie was thought provoking. Death is not an end. It is just a transcendence to another plane or realm of existence where one's life is fueled by his / her memories in the inhabitants of the physical world. Quite a fascinating thought! This may motivate people to value relationships when alive perhaps. To not lose the memories of a deceased one, living people place pictures of the dead in an altar enabling them to visit the physical world one night of a year. This will make the living ones to ruminate the legacy their deceased family had left.

In Tamil cinema, death would usually evoke pity or  melancholy. Or the movie would be of some crass (and/or) spooky ghost or re-birth for revenge types. A new genre of பேய் காமெடி (ghost comedy) has been beat to pulp as well. The movies நான் கடவுள் ("Naan Kadavul" meaning "I am God") and இரண்டாம் உலகம் ("Irandaam Ulagam" meaning "Next world") gave different perspectives. The first movie was about an Agori saint who was abandoned by his family as a boy. He grows to be a bold, fearless saint at Kaasi and is sent back to his family by his Guru. He says "Death is the punishment given to those who don't deserve to live. It is a boon to those who cannot live". The latter is a movie about a man who kills himself after the unexpected death of his love. He transcends to a parallel world where he finds himself and his love. These two movies are of the must watch type, far away from cliched themes.

Death - it is intriguing because of the mystique it holds. What happens then? Where were we before birth? Do the dead come back? Nobody knows. At least normal people like us don't. We happily enjoy worldly pleasures and sulk or cry for sad events fantasizing that we and our life are permanent. This is easier said than realized. Death can be viewed as an ultimate truth to which all of us are bound to return. For normal people like us, death can be a teacher, a huge and humbling teacher. The rich or poor, men or women, influential or powerless - everyone has to answer this mighty master. It teaches us not to take anything or even ourselves seriously.
It can help us take decisions too when confused. "Will this decision or action add any happiness when i depart?" is a question we need to ask ourselves when confused or aggressive. "This is just a phase before my departure" is an assurance we need to give ourselves when low. This way the sense of self is subdued; hence making our life a little more pleasant. Many of us do understand the theory of this but practically to apply in our life is far from easy. At least trying to do so would make us better persons. 

Thursday, August 30, 2018

மெய்த்திருப்பது எதுவோ

நில்லாது நிலையாது
ஓடும் வாழ்வினிலே
காலம் கடந்திடினும்
மாறிலியாய் இருப்பதென்னவோ...

அன்பு, புகழ், செல்வம் என
எல்லாமே மாறுகையில் - எதும்
மாறாதிருக்க வேட்கை கொள்ளல்
நீர்க்குமிழியில் நிரந்தரம் நாடுதலே.

எல்லாம் நீர்க்குமிழியெனில்
எதுவும் மாறுமெனில்
மெய்த்திருப்பதெதுவோ?
மெய்யென்றொன்றுண்டோ?

நீரில் எழுந்து உடையும் வரை
குமிழி மெய் தானே...

இல்லாதிருந்தபின் எழுந்து
பின் உடைந்து இல்லாததாகும்
குமிழி - அது வாழும் வரை
மெய்யன்றோ

உணர்ச்சி உறவு உடமைதனில்
மாறிலிகள் தேடாமல்
கிட்டும் நேரமே அது மெய்யென்று
தாமரையில் தண்ணீராய் இன்புற்று வாழ்ந்திடுவோம்...

Monday, August 20, 2018

Random thoughts - Who am I?

Hi all :) 
Disclaimer : This post is very abstract; not intended to make you feel sleepy, bored or leave you feeling "meh". If so, heartfelt apologies ;)

Let me ask you to name something that you feel is your identity, something that defines you as a person. Different answers - "thoughtful", "teacher", "optimist", "independent", "funny", "leader", "beautiful" etc are possible. The answers depend on what a person feels about oneself, what is that striking characteristic in him / her that overpowers the rest. 

Do you hold on to that trait all the time?
Mostly no.
Then, is that your identity? Does that define you?

What if you get rid of that trait?
Will you not survive? 
Sure you will. 
Then, is that your identity? Does that define you?

Before you tag this post philosophical or spiritual, let me clarify that am trying to figure this out at a very worldly level. Say for instance, a very fun loving person cracking up jokes all the time decides not to be funny all of a sudden. She / He will surely live. Whether not being funny affects the person at an emotional level? Sure yes, but that will dissipate as time flies. I had always felt that having a professional front, being a teacher especially is my identity. But situations needed me to quit work. I was too apprehensive and was brooding over it for more than a year. Got immense clarity of what is to be done in a magical two weeks and with that, i submitted my resignation. I still live and happily too (though i miss the reciprocation from students and small talks with peers). 

Nothing in this world "defines" a person. The traits we possess are those which we acquire over time to adapt to the situations we face. Situations change, so do our 'traits'. So to repeatedly stress over the absence of something in you, is not necessary. And it is not that you cannot be _____ at all. An eminent psychiatrist says that any particular characteristic of a person can be changed, it is just a matter of the person's willingness, time and environment. 

Never stress over that which you are not. Just walk towards it and you become that one day, eventually.

Thursday, May 31, 2018

தாய் மனம் - Mother's heart

These are verses every parent, mother in particular can related to.  Thanks for reading :-)

உடலுள் ஒரு பாகமாய்
எனக்குள் வளர்ந்து - என்
உயிரின் நுண்ணுருவாய்
எந்தன் கைசேர்ந்தாய்

வயிற்றுள் புழுபோல்
வளைந்து நெளிந்தது
விந்தையாய் இன்று
வேலை பல செய்யுது

கோபத்தின் உச்சியில் நான்
மதியிழக்கும் நொடிக்கடுத்தே
கொஞ்சியெனை குளிர்விக்கும்
மாயம் நீயே அறிவாய்

ஆத்திகரின் வேண்டுதல்
அன்னை தந்தை ஆவதே
நாத்திகரும் கடவுள் காண்பர்
குழவி துயில் அழகிலே

உன் சிரிப்பு அழுகை வலி
பன்மடங்காய் நானுணர
உன் உணர்ச்சிமிகை காட்டும்
கண்ணாடியாய் சுயம் தொலைத்தேன்

Translation:
Having grown as a part of myself, you reached me as a miniature of my soul.

That which wriggled inside my tummy is surprising me with many actions.

After getting me insane with anger, you trick to cool me down with cuddles.

Theists wish to become parents. Even atheists feel God in a sleeping baby.

I feel your laughter, crying and pain manifold. I have lost myself being a mirror showing your feelings in amplification.

Wednesday, May 23, 2018

A simple ode

Atheists or Non believers - this is a post about Shirdi Sai Baba. So please read this if only you want to. Let us not start any altercation on this. 

Sai Baba
Image Source : https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/d/df/Shirdi_Sai_Baba_3.jpg

This has been in my bucket list for years - to write verses in adoration of Shirdi Sai Baba whom i have been worshipping from my M.E days. But Baba has blessed me with this opportunity only now. Though a believer, I was not a very staunch worshipper of any form of God for that matter till then. This connect - it just happened all of a sudden.  One can feel his invisible grip on every walk of life once the surrender to him is complete.

I have referred the book "Sai Sathcharithra" for coming up with these verses. 
Hope you enjoy it. 

ஞானத் திருவுருவே மோனப் பெருங்கடலே
கானம் பாடிக் களித்து உன்னை
தியானம் செய்யும் வரமருள்வாய்
ஞாலத்தில் சுழன்றுழலும் எம்மை
ஞானத்திலே கரைத்திடுவாய்

பரப்பிரம்மம் உருவெடுத்து பாபா என்றானதோ
பல பாவம் தீர்த்தெம்மை பக்தியிலே கரைத்ததோ
பக்தி ஞானம் நாம் உணர லீலை பல புரிந்ததோ
பருவ மேகமாய் நம் மேல் அமுத மழை பொழிந்ததோ

பாபா தரிசனம் பாப விமோசனம்
அவர் நாமம் நல்கிடும் விவேகம் வைராக்யம்
எண்ணங்கள் மேன்மையாய் பக்தியில் திளைத்திடும்
காணுமிடமெல்லாம் அவர் திருவுருவம் காத்திடும் 

கண்காணா எண்ணங்கள் கண்டுகொள்ளும் கடவுள் நீ
முக்காலம் வடித்தெடுக்கும் மும்மூர்த்தி வடிவம் நீ
பல்லுயிருள் பரம்பொருளை கண்டுணர்ந்த யோகி நீ
எக்காலமும் எவ்விடமும் வாழும் சர்வவியாபி நீ

பிறப்பில்லா இறப்பில்லா பெருஞ்ஜோதியே
உமையன்றி எமக்கேது பிறிதோக் கதியே
உன் பாதம் தான் பற்ற தீரும் வினையே

அகக்கண்கள் திறப்பித்து ஞானம் தருவாய்
அஹங்காரம் அழிவித்து அறிவும் அருள்வாய்
புலனுணர்வு பொருளாசை பொசுங்கிட செய்வாய்

பாபா உம் லீலைக்கு கணக்கும் உண்டோ
உம் கருணை பார்வைக்கிணை சொற்கள் உண்டோ
உம் நாமம் விடவும் ஒரு சாதகம் உண்டோ

Monday, May 21, 2018

மறவோம் மறவோம்

This is a fast piece written today.  Can be labelled philosophical or spiritual.

Though these sort of ideas in me lack depth, i found it very meaningful to pen this down. May seem half baked to a spiritually great person. But still coming up with verses like these is my new found joy.

Hope it is relatable and evokes deep thoughts.

உடலென்னும் பாத்திரத்தில்
உலகுக்குள் நுழைகிறோம்
உடலன்று நான் என்ற
உண்மையை மறக்கிறோம்

பாத்திரத்தால் வந்த கதையில்
பல பாத்திரம் ஏற்கிறோம்
வரும் போகும் பாத்திரங்கள்
சொந்தமாக நினைக்கிறோம்

வந்த போதும் போகும் போதும்
கர்மமன்றி கையில் ஏதுமன்று
இடைப்பட்ட காலத்தில்
மேலும் கர்மம் சேர்க்கிறோம்

ஆணென்றும் பெண்னென்றும்
அரசனென்றும் ஆண்டியென்றும்
தமதென்றும் பிறரதென்றும்
மாயையிலே கிடக்கிறோம்

கதை முடிந்த பின்னே
கையிலேதும் நில்லாத போது
பொருளாசை பொறாமை
போட்டிகள் தான் ஏனோ

கதை முடியும் வரையிலே
கருணை அன்பு காட்டியே
கதை மாந்தர் மகிழவே
கதை வளர்ப்போம்  இனிமையாய்.

Thursday, May 17, 2018

Lyric mania

Life has taken a steep turn, for the better. Am a stay at home mom now and experiencing joy, toil etc to the bits; and loving it.

This has revived my literary(!!!???) interests and i'm coming up with short poems, lyrics or write ups or whatever you call them, now and then.

The following two situations were given by my friend Viji. Whether the write ups do justice to the situations is left to you :-)

No bashing please.. Look at it only as a try from an amateur :-)

Situation 1:
Male version: this character is a desperate graduate, no vision of future but with spirit to do something. Four lines of youthful, confused, gonna win kinda song.

குழப்ப மேகங்கள் குலைக்க முயன்றாலும்
வெற்றிக் கதிர் வீசுதல் திண்ணம்
அஞ்சாமல் வீறுநடை போடுவேன் எந்நாளும்
பயணம் என்னை பலவிதம் பலமாக்கும்

Meaning:
Despite the clouds of doubts
Sunshine of victory is certain.
I will walk fearlessly everyday
in this journey which will strengthen me

Situation 2:
Old lady.. Resting, rejoicing her journey of life.. In a evening..

எத்தனை மாலைகள் இதுபோலே
இனிதே காண்பேன் இனிமேலே
கருணை காதல்அன்பு என
கனிந்து நின்றேன் கதவருகே
கடவுள் கூப்பிடும் நொடியினிலே
கடந்து போவேன் வான்மேலே
அவன் காலடியதனில் இளைப்பாறி
கரைந்து போக வழி கேட்பேன்

How many more such evenings
Am i going to experience joyfully..
With kindness and love
I stand ripened near the door (of my life)..
When God beckons
I will fly towards the sky...
I will rest in his foot
And ask him the way to become one with him.

Thanks for reading :-)

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